emily is so afraid of death.

she scared of it all being over.

idk why, im not.

im just scared of people missing

me and not being able to be happy.

i mean, i know they will be eventually,

but i dont want to make them sad at all.

if i didnt love people and they didnt love me,

i really wouldnt mind dying at all.

not like id kill myself or anything,

(i never understood why people did that), but like

if it happened, it happened.

but with billy, corinne, my mom, and my dad, and my papa,

i wouldnt wanna bring sadness to them.

but im not scared of it.

not at all.

if it happens, it happens

and live

and love

will eventually

go on.

sometimes she cant sleep

and she shakes.