the realization killed something inside of me

i was caught so off guard

just when i thought everything was perfect...

i mustve sat in my car for an hour and a half,

i couldnt see, i couldnt breath, and i couldnt even think straight,

but i managed to drive home, walk to my house, and fall asleep.

i dont know what hurt me more,

you or realizing i had no one.

ill be completely alone,

im so fragile right now,

its pathetic,

im pathetic.

how the fuck did this happen?